The Mom Song (it's well done)

Hope

First of all, this isn't my best work. I think it's ok but it's been smudged a bit since I finished it because I used conte and there's some weird spots on it for some reason. The graffiti on the bottom reads hope and there's also a cross mixed in there. Tell me what you think. Click on the image to enlarge it.

Guess what I found...

Yesterday I was searching for gum in my house. I was in my parents room when I came across my mom's old diary. So I snuck it out of the room and have obviously been reading it. She didn't write very much, or consistently, but it's from the early 80s when she was in her early 20s. I think. So far it's about boys she never ended up marrying and occasionally Jesus. It's pretty interesting.

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11AM

I just finished reading through it now. I feel like writing in it:

January 29, 2009

I just finished reading your diary mom. It was quite interesting but I'm glad you never married Fred or Mike (for the obvious reason). :)

I really want to write that but... I don't think I will... Hmmm, maybe I'll pick a random blank page in the middle of the book... for someone to find another 20 years later.... I don't know.

Home, eh?

Hey, I'm at home right now. Bored. So, if you're in the same situation, feel free to draw a picture, the best you can do and put it on your blog.

In the mean time I'll teach you about the word eh. It's a Canadian word that other people just don't seem to get. But I get it, so don't worry.

Well, it's not a greeting. It's not another word for hello, hi, hey, howdy, 'sup, or any other word of that type. And you don't tag it on to greetings saying "Hi eh!" either.

What you basically do with the word eh is tag it on to the end of a statement and it becomes a question.

For example, I'm in Idaho, it's just snowed and a friend comes over. You might say "It's cold out." A Canadian in that same situation could tag the word eh on the end making it a question. "It's cold out, eh?" And so what it does is it gives the other person a chance to respond, "Yeah, it is really cold", or "I guess, but aren't you Canadian? I thought you were supposed to be used to this stuff".

Other examples...

"That exam was really hard, eh?" .... "Nah, I studied"

"You totally nailed that triple kick flip thing the other day, eh?" .... "Sorry, wrong gal"

"That guy's pretty good-looking, eh?" .... "Yeah, I just wish he were a Christian"

"You guys haven't commented on my blog lately, eh?" .... "(Your response goes here)"

I think you get the idea. And I'm looking forward to seeing some good drawings soon!

I'm really bummed.

Bummed

I finished my last exam well I think but I'm bummed because now that the semester's over one of my best friends is really moved out of town a couple hours away for good. We had three classes together and today might have been the last time I'll see if she doesn't go to prom at my school and my dad's yelling about something upstairs and I have a headache. Pppphhhhhhhhhh.....

Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

I like this song.

Exam Week and Me

Most people just review stuff during exam week. Well, I'm different, I've been learning. Especially yesterday, and today.

I wrote two exams today: English and Math. And last night I found myself sitting on my bed, books in front, frustrated with myself because I didn't want to open them. Let me just grab my commonplace book so I can write some thoughts that I had.

Ok. I'm back.

"I really need to study.

I want to have motivation."
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"And I could be a smart kid but I haven't demonstrated the skills. It really bothers me."
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"And I don't want to write about this. I really don't. I'm disappointed in myself and I want to say that I don't care to make it easier."
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"But I feel like I'd like to rip out all my notes and throw them away."
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Here's the punch line:

"I'm looking forward to the new semester because it means a new start for me. I can't see what there's left to do well this semester so I feel like giving up. I want to do well but I just can't see it"
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Well, those are some snippets in no particular order. You probably get the feel. I could've done better this semester and I'm disappointed with myself. And when I get my grades back, whatever they look like, I will need to take responsibility for them without excuses. And this responsibility thing was like an epiphany either late last night or this morning. And I'm thinking that line from Mxpx's song, "Responsibility, what's that? Responsibility, not quite yet! I don't wanna think about it. We'd be better off without it." But it's important, and I really really do care. Next semester is gonna be killer.

AND!!!! Our God is a God of grace! I still have one more exam and kind of a three day weekend to ace it. Pray for me please. That'd be awesome.

New Letter, New Post

ummm.....
yesterday....
I got a letter....
from a friend....
which I was very pleased about.
And....
Posts, to me are kind of like letters to me.
So write me a "letter" if you feel up to it.
And maybe title it Dear Miss Steph,
if you want.

Spaceball Portrait

I'm going to try and draw this. There's so many ways I could be creative with art, but I love using my pencils best and I love drawing people. Hey, maybe if any of you have a good picture I could try to draw it. Just maybe, if I like it, they take a lot of work.



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Inauguration

I know it's a really significant historic event, but I just don't care that much. I think it's somewhat overhyped. I just said it. I think Obama is overhyped. But I'm Canadian so maybe my opinion doesn't count as much. I know his skin is dark, but that doesn't necessarily mean that he's going to have superior presidential skills. And his great speaking skills don't either. I like him though; I think he's a good guy. But honestly, he's just a man like any other president. That's equality.



Puhhh..... I put my hope in Jesus alone to make change in America!

venn

I'm only putting this up to help move a file to another place. I think it looks nice though, don't you? I used Picasa 3 from Google for the effects.

Project

I've got a project to work on tonight. (Yahhh! ... but not really). At least it couldn't be any worse than the guy I had to peer evalute today. My paraphrase: "Well here's my hypothesis but I'm not really going to read it to you or explain it. [next slide] This one-variable analysis shows that gr.12s have lowers averages than younger grades, so I'm guessing that because gr.12s have cars... [next slide] here's some graphs, pretty self-explanetory" He skips right to his conclusions, of which he has none. It was really hard to give him an evaluation. He was done in like a minute from beginning to end. 2 max.

Anyways, big projects like these mean the next semester is close and that's what this whole post was supposed to be about. I'm looking forward to it.

P.E.I.

Does anyone ever think about that little island? What if one day it no longer exists because people drop by to take some red dirt and then leave? I personally have a small jar of Prince Edward Island sitting on a shelf in my room.

Alzheimer's

Do you think that someone who is more reflective or intrapersonal is a more likely victim of Alzheimer's Disease? If so I think I may be a likely target.

Boring Stuff, but maybe not boring

Everything's kind of terribly boring for me lately. I've gotta a couple culminatings due next week that I need to work on. Ooh! Have I told you what I'm doing for my art culminating? It's about cutting. On the right of the image I'll have a girl's right hand and wrist on the right of the image. Her wrist will be cut and bleeding. On the left they'll be another hand, this one Jesus's. His wrist also bleeding but not because of cutting but because of the nail driven through his wrist when he died on the cross. His hand will be reaching the girls. So both are bleeding and together at the bottom center on the image the blood will create a graffiti of the word hope. And because of the way I'm doing it, you'll also be able to see a image of the cross within the word. I don't yet know what I'll be doing with the background. Maybe just graffiti type graphics. I really need to get that figured out. I could just post my art on here when the semester ends. Then you'll be able to see it for yourself.

But, ok, so I stupidly chose to be the first one critiqued and bit scared, not that the art won't be good but because my friend Larissa who cuts is in that class and I haven't really told her what I'm doing mine about yet. I'm just worried because I don't know how she'll take it. You can pray about that if you want. I'm hoping that it'll have a good affect.

Another than that... umm. It like I keep getting bad marks back at school. I want to care but it seems like nothing's ever done about that in the way I organize my life. I really need to do a good job on my culminatings that are left and my exams. Yeah, I could say more but there's not really any point. Oh, and there's day called the lunar new year. It's right in the middle of my exams and because school's are allowed to do major holidays there is a normal school day in between exams! No one's going to go. I'm not. It's rediculous. How come my birthday is never considered as holiday? It's on the 24th of June. Some people at my school wrotes exams on that day last year. Tahnkfully I didn't, but c'mon it's St-Jean-Baptiste Day. Yeah, I should start a riot! Or something... Can anyone tell me who celebrates the lunar new year anyways? Didn't think so.

Also, I ordered the NASB Study Bible a couple days ago. My dad actually did for me but I'm really excited for it. Real leather, and it wasn't very expensive. When I get it I don't know what I'll study but I'm just gonna read it and read it and read it. And memorize it and make myself really familiar with it and be really knowledgeable and stuff. And hopefully that'll show through in the way I live. I want it now.

That's all, ggirl.

Life Right Now

Lately I've been a little bit out of the Word. Partly because of business, partly because I think I'm not being fed by my small group because we're doing a back to the basics thing with our church and I really want to get into something deeper. All excuses aside, it's really a shame for two reasons. First is that this is the Christmas break. So for me that means that I should be spending more time with God, not less time praising Him for all that he did. I had a second reason, I know it... Secondly, when I read less I pray less and that just sucks. It affects all of me.

There are so many things I could be praying for too. One thing that's been on my mind lately is one of me cousins. She's one of my favourite cousins to hang out with. Her family isn't Christian and she's 22, perfectly capable of making decisions for herself. After finishing the Christmas dinner we were sitting together and she got up. I thought maybe to get a drink from the kitchen or to go to the washroom or something. She came back a little while later and smelt of smoke. It made me really sad to smell that. She drinks out at parties and stuff and I wouldn't be surprised if she wasn't a virgin either. (But I'm very glad I've been given no reason to believe that!)

Her sister, on the other hand, is an amazingly strong Christian finishing her last year at Liberty U. I bet she's praying for her and I want to be too.

Also, I really want to be praying about the one dream I've really been given and hold on to. It's a dream of community for the church. Something like Acts 2. I'm dreaming of a place where people really know each other. Where our age doesn't limit those who we care for and spend time with. For a people that prays like crazy all the time. A place where there's trust and accountability. Something like that....

I want to do a study on covenant and I want to get a new NASB study Bible as soon as possible. And I need to finish a painting for art class.