A Poem and a Few Other Thingers...

I wrote a poem yesterday that doesn't yet have a title. Poems don't have to be explained and so I'm not going to, because I'd rather not. So here it is:

Look Deeper (added in afterwards)

A smile has no definition

A smile can mean anything

Usually perceived as a sign of happiness

But they are not limited or refrained to such

A smile has no definition

And a smile can mean anything

Cheap smiles are easy to give out

Unheartfelt and maybe entailing pain

I want to smile and be free

I want to shine with beauty

To be real and mean every minute of it

For my laughter to speak joy

But your distance is painful

It makes me want to cry

I long to be with you

To hear your voice and know I'm loved

That's my request

That's all I want

To smile

And know that it means everything

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I let one of my friends read it and she didn't get it. That's fine too, I wasn't expecting them to understand and I wasn't planning on telling them either.

Other things in my life... I recently bought a new West 49 sweater that's reversible... pretty sweet! I got some art stuff that was expensive, but worth it. And today, I got a purple pen. Kind of unusual but I like it. If you didn't know purple is my favourite colour. (Ha two Canadian spellings in a row. My spell check is going crazy).

That reminds me I have spell check right now because I'm using Safari the web browser. It was a free download you could get with iTunes. I was quite excited to be able to have it because I had heard a lot of good stuff about it. The design of it looks really good and it has great features too. One thing I really like about it is that it's a lot faster than my other browser. But right now I'm still trying it out. There's some things I'm not sure I like and I'm kind of wondering whether or not the differences are worth the change... well those are my thoughts anyways. Checking out, your graffiti sister!

UPDATE as of March 30, 2008: I've decided on a title but I'm not letting you know! Haha, sucks to be whoever you are because you don't know... No, but really the title's more for me than for other people so I'm just leaving this blog as it is.

So disregard what I just wrote I came up with a title that's better that I'm going to share. It's called Look Deeper as of now.

Thinking Space

Bloggers is a great place to go for thinking, to get away from stuff that's going on and just write. My essay's nearing end now, it will be finished tonight. It seems like I've just lost all my words as I come to write, as if this is something important and that it matters who reads this. As if I should have to think about what I'm writing. Journaling has also interested me, not as a profession but just as a hobby. Like a diary. I've tried to get into it. By keeping a notebook and writing in it. Then, I'll make some kind of mistake and it'll lose it's effect and then soon I'll lose interest. The problem with it for me is that I write in whatever it is at the end of the day. I record the things that happened during the day but don't express what I'm feeling. Maybe this'll be different... A place to vent my mind.

Hmm... not much else to say I guess. Unless something else comes to mind before I quit typing.
You want to talk about something? Let's talk about the high school and the kinds of things that go on there. I'm just writing from my own perspective though. There's no research behind any of this, except maybe if you consider my own self a primary resource... So what I'd really like to write is just the people, the teens, specifically the teen girls, since I'm a girl and obviously know them best. (But not just girls, and you're thinking long enough intro already) There's so many issues and stuff that teens go through. Lots for sure. You've got the people who like to call themselves emo who are usually somewhat depressed, possibly resolving to cutting and maybe even having suicidal thoughts. Then there are others who are wasting themselves on drugs because of possible situations that they can't control. For those people it probably doesn't seem like a lot of hope for their future, they might come from broken families. For them the chance of getting sound education won't seem like a reality. It's not just those people who have issues to deal with. I think it's probably everybody to a certain extent, if they're being real. Sometimes I really wish people would be more open to talk. What kind of wall are we covering ourselves with? Laughing? Makeup? Quietness? Popularity? I don't know... keeping yourselve busy with some kind of hobby? Supposedly, only half of us are still virgins... I'm deffinately going to continue this later but it is a downer that I have a lot of work to do on an essay that's due tomorrow. Maybe I'll finsh this tomorrow in a new blog if I'm not asleep...

So if you've managed to stubble upon this blog and happen to cut I've got a video that should bring you some hope. Or find it at http://youtube.com/watch?v=8n6x1AgvrfA.




That's it for now.