Poetry? Rap? Spoken Word? Anything?

Wow, that last post accumulated a slight bit of attention. I hope the discussion continues on for now. I didn't really know what to expect. Maybe when I look at little more into the subject, delve into the books I'm looking to read, I'll create a separate blog to post my synopses. That could be interesting, and possibly beneficial.

[Note: The books I'm talking about is The Origin of Species by Charles Darwin, The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins, and Signature in the Cell by Stephen C. Meyer. You can guess the topic based on the titles.]

Now, something different for the moment. I love poetry. I am not a poet myself, but I can really appreciate good poetry when I hear it. So have you heard any good poetry lately? Anything?

Let me know. Seriously. Get back to me on this one.

Oh and ... no maybe I'll ask that later.

Anyone interested in evolution?

Anyone interested in evolution? Any experts out there?

I'm a creationist, a firm adherent of ID aka Intelligent Design and I personally know the Bible to be 100% true. Every word.

If you are an evolutionist, a naturalist, whatever you may call yourself - I won't bash you. Honestly. I don't know enough to do that.

If it came to a debate, I would lose because I am not yet educated enough to do that, to make any kind of adequate response. Also, winning a debate doesn't make you wrong or right, it only makes the winner feel good about themselves. Either evolution or ID, is right, it's one or the other, they both can't be true. And whichever one is true (I would say ID), is not determined by the results. Hopefully, this is something we can both agree on. So, I'm not even looking to that kind of thing.

I'm looking to broaden my understanding of both sides. If you are perhaps someone who knows more than your average youtuber who thinks they do, if you're interested in some open discussion, I'd invite you to leave a comment. Maybe we can both benefit from this?

I'm working on a project... take a guess what it's about

So kind of...

I kind of found someone I kind of like on eHarmony. Not the first guy from a couple posts ago, but a different guy. It kind of doesn't mean all that much to me right now, but I kind of like what I see. He's just kind of like me from what I know.

I don't know. *shrugs shoulders casually* We'll see where this goes. We're just emailing right now that's all. Just talking about Jesus and CS Lewis and stuff.

This Little Prism...

Sometimes I feel things, and as a response to these feeling an image comes to mind. Typically, in the past, when these images come to mind, I would try to draw them. That option is still valid; God had indeed given me some artistic abilities. More recently, however, I'm finding it easier to describe these things with words more than anything else.

So bear with me, I'd like to share this one with you.

Whole. Completeness. Authenticity. Should discussion on such topics arise, the probable result as a consensus would be that these are regarded as valued characteristics. There are some who will strongly advocate for these things and attribute them to who they are as people.

I would propose, that if it were possible to study the correlation between the thoughts of such people with their spoken words, a striking discrepancy would become very clear. In fact, every related antonym to the idea would likely hold dominance in actuality.

All this to say that I do not think of myself as the exception. If you're reading this, then you're obviously on my blog, and through that have a perception of who I am. I don't know what that is, and depending on who you are, how long you've been reading my posts, interacting with me, etc, etc - obviously this will cause a variance in your perception from the next person's.

Truth is truth, however, and whatever you're perception - it really doesn't matter when it comes to truth, because truth is true, and that's the way it works. I would like to think, and I hope, that if you're reading this maybe you have a clearer view into the way my mind works as oppose the everyday people I interact with every. day. By that I mean, that I hope you can see through me a little better, that you can see that when I say that I broken and not all together - I mean it.

I haven't even given you a glimpse of this image I have yet, but it starts with the truth that I am a project continually in the works, being restored by Jesus Christ to what I am meant to be. So if I appear broken at times, it's the truth. And the times when I seem whole, it's only by grace.

In my everyday life, however, I don't really think people see this brokenness. Perhaps its a shame, I don't know, but in general I'm probably seen as put-together, maybe never been hurt, doesn't really know pain or sorrow, stuff like that. Some of that may be true.

Here's the image. The sketch I have in my mind: imagine some big [mostly] empty space. Then there's me floating somewhere in the midst of it all, a smallish type prism shape. Maybe like a crystal or something, but somewhat shattered in shards. Some shards are bigger than others, some are smaller, but more or less this prism shape is there.

If you're looking at me from my angle and think I'm whole, don't fool yourself, you're just looking at a big shard. And this little prism doesn't exactly have control over where it's going, yet it keeps going. Its splintered form inspires a sort of fear. The fear is this, 'If I keep going, which I continue to do with no control, sooner or later, I'm gonna have to hit something'. If and when this little prism hits whatever it is that it's going to hit, helplessly, the smaller shards will be revealed.

Knowing that the time will come is bittersweet. I don't know what to expect in the vulnerability of it all. Exposed, not that I prefer to be hidden. It's like my greatest longing and fear all in the same breath and moment. Then what? I can't say.

I think I said I was the prism when I first started to described the scenario. More accurately, I think it would probably symbolize my image, as this is only my portrayal and not true identity. A tainted container, housing but one lonely person.

That's as far as the image goes. Not that I don't have Jesus. He is the great companion, and most definitely not the cause of any loneliness I may feel. Not that I'm a hermit or don't spend time with anyone. Rather that I don't let anyone in.

Honestly, the people who know of my blog are just about the only people who get this kind of access. I am not okay with this, but for the moment this is it. This is a very special place where I can write and say whatever I want or need. So thank you for letting me share this with you.

K, that's it for now I guess.

My Dad.

My Dad, my Dad, my Dad, my Dad. I love him. Possibly the greatest gift I've ever received in this earthly lifetime. Aside from Jesus. And the greatest gift to the both of us, is probably my Mom.

I love him so incredibly I don't know how I could love him more. I don't know what to say. Our motorbike rides together are amazing. Spring is good in that regard. He has such wisdom, and I can see myself in him. I enjoy his company. It's lovely. I love to hug and kiss him (on the cheek). He's fantastic, for me at least, really.

Tell me about your dads, I hope you have as great of dads as I have for myself.

Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy. Okay.... what do I do?

So I signed up for eHarmony last night. I'm of age; I know how to be safe. I figured, what's the worst that could happen?

Well, I don't have a credit card so I can't pay for a subscription just yet, which means that I can review my matches but I can't communicate with them. But now someone has questions for me, and I want to answer. Also, there's a different person, I'd like to send some questions. But the other guy will be waiting for a response. Oh boyy... What have I got myself into? *shakes head*

When my dad gets home I'll ask him if I can use his. I know I can pay him back, I just don't know if he'd approve.

On the site that I doing my banking with, I don't see any reason why I couldn't have my own, but I don't think I make enough money yet annually to do that. Or something like that.

But I don't know what to do!! I really hope my dad says yes. Any thoughts??