Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sometimes I'm an Idiot
I forgot to go to my driver's ed lesson during my spare today. I've felt dumb the whole rest of the day. And now I feel dumb for posting a the title I did on the last one. But what's done is done.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Dfly Ain't the Only Prego
(P.s. don't forget to scroll down to and read the other newer posts).
How's that for an attention grabber? I'm not pregnant but I just found out today that a friend of mine way out in Saskatchewan is. She's only 21 right now, but I'm really excited for her. I'm sure she'll be a great mom; she's always loved kids. I made her this graffiti thing for her wedding in August of '07. (She got married really young!) One of the things I've ever put the most effort and time into, though I could probably do better now. She tells me that it was the best gift they got. I took some pictures of it.
Yeah... I'm looking forward to seeing her when she comes home.
Anyways, Dfly, if you want I could do something graffiti for you. I don't know if you'd be willing to send me address or not, but if you are I'd love to draw it up.
How's that for an attention grabber? I'm not pregnant but I just found out today that a friend of mine way out in Saskatchewan is. She's only 21 right now, but I'm really excited for her. I'm sure she'll be a great mom; she's always loved kids. I made her this graffiti thing for her wedding in August of '07. (She got married really young!) One of the things I've ever put the most effort and time into, though I could probably do better now. She tells me that it was the best gift they got. I took some pictures of it.
Yeah... I'm looking forward to seeing her when she comes home.
Anyways, Dfly, if you want I could do something graffiti for you. I don't know if you'd be willing to send me address or not, but if you are I'd love to draw it up.
Monday, April 27, 2009
kdlasdjflkasjd........ umm, Protest? (& more)
It seems like haven't been saying much lately. So thanks for checking on me even though I haven't had anything to say. Or at least know how to put into words.
I'd like to share with you something I wrote on Saturday and is still very true right now. First a poem type thing and then stuff.
don't drag me into to your system
i am empty
i need directions but i missed 'em
please God, i need some wisdom
i like a boy but i may never kiss'im
again, i reject this system
i am empty so i am dry
like a cupbut
the drink's effects
not evident
i am thirsty
i am lonely so i am empty
i have no Body
let the world move on without me
I don't know how to write what I'm going through. I'm incredibly lonely and disappointed. I'm continually discouraged when I look at the church and how it's done. My desire to pull away and just quit gets greater all the time. The only thing that keeps me from doing that is that I would be the biggest loser in the world to do that, because I know that what is taught is real. Jesus is real, but if His church is supposed to be any kind of community, it fails horribly [from my perspective] Nothing is set in place to develope and encourage that, and I am continually left on my own.
The boy I like, mentioned in the poem above is J_____. One of the main reasons is because he wants to do church planting. He's really just a maybe but I'd like to chat with him about that sometime. Not to mention, he's friendly and well-built. But whatever, the latter of that is really besides the point. "May never kiss 'im" has to do with the fact that he may not be the one, if any, I marry, since I vowed a long time ago not to kiss until I get married.
... how does that sound? Am I doing ok? I still hope things will change and get better, and in that, if you looked deep enough there is a slight excitement. The above is presently way more prominent.
On a completely different note, I took part in a protest today at my school. Pretty fun.
Basically, this grade 9 Asian kid had been bullied for just about the full year. Then the one time he told the bully to say whatever he was going to say to face. He did (which was very rude, but I don't know exactly what it was) and he also punched the Asian guy a couuple times in the face. He punched him back and broke his nose and the bully had to go to the hospital. His hands were supposedly considered weapons because he's had some karate training something like that but he was acting in defence.
If you could follow all that, the result was that the victim would be expelled... because that's what you're supposed to do with kids who send other kids to the hospital. We were protesting for Jack (the victim) to not get expelled when if anyone were to get expelled it should be the bully for provoking it.
Today we stood for anti-racism and anti- bullying. The theme, chant, slogan or what you will was Black for Jack. Almost everyone wore black. I rushed in the morning and didn't get a chance to grab something black, so I borrowed my friend's somewhat gothic black jacket. I was so cool. That's a promise.
I skipped first period. We got a lot of media attention. The local paper. Also, the Toronto Star, A channel news, and I think maybe CTV. Some people stayed out all day but they were the ones who just wanted to skip because our purpose was accomplished after the first period. They ruined it a little bit, and I think they also may have gotten the guy who planned it a suspension. That's about the most exciting thing that I know of that's ever happened in my little town.
If you want to read more follow this link.
ummmm the upper half is more important than the second, although stuff. Hope you're all doing well. I'm reading all of your posts though I may be slow to comment sometimes. I've been less of a total Internet addict lately.
I'd like to share with you something I wrote on Saturday and is still very true right now. First a poem type thing and then stuff.
don't drag me into to your system
i am empty
i need directions but i missed 'em
please God, i need some wisdom
i like a boy but i may never kiss'im
again, i reject this system
i am empty so i am dry
like a cupbut
the drink's effects
not evident
i am thirsty
i am lonely so i am empty
i have no Body
let the world move on without me
I don't know how to write what I'm going through. I'm incredibly lonely and disappointed. I'm continually discouraged when I look at the church and how it's done. My desire to pull away and just quit gets greater all the time. The only thing that keeps me from doing that is that I would be the biggest loser in the world to do that, because I know that what is taught is real. Jesus is real, but if His church is supposed to be any kind of community, it fails horribly [from my perspective] Nothing is set in place to develope and encourage that, and I am continually left on my own.
The boy I like, mentioned in the poem above is J_____. One of the main reasons is because he wants to do church planting. He's really just a maybe but I'd like to chat with him about that sometime. Not to mention, he's friendly and well-built. But whatever, the latter of that is really besides the point. "May never kiss 'im" has to do with the fact that he may not be the one, if any, I marry, since I vowed a long time ago not to kiss until I get married.
... how does that sound? Am I doing ok? I still hope things will change and get better, and in that, if you looked deep enough there is a slight excitement. The above is presently way more prominent.
On a completely different note, I took part in a protest today at my school. Pretty fun. Basically, this grade 9 Asian kid had been bullied for just about the full year. Then the one time he told the bully to say whatever he was going to say to face. He did (which was very rude, but I don't know exactly what it was) and he also punched the Asian guy a couuple times in the face. He punched him back and broke his nose and the bully had to go to the hospital. His hands were supposedly considered weapons because he's had some karate training something like that but he was acting in defence.
If you could follow all that, the result was that the victim would be expelled... because that's what you're supposed to do with kids who send other kids to the hospital. We were protesting for Jack (the victim) to not get expelled when if anyone were to get expelled it should be the bully for provoking it.
Today we stood for anti-racism and anti- bullying. The theme, chant, slogan or what you will was Black for Jack. Almost everyone wore black. I rushed in the morning and didn't get a chance to grab something black, so I borrowed my friend's somewhat gothic black jacket. I was so cool. That's a promise.
I skipped first period. We got a lot of media attention. The local paper. Also, the Toronto Star, A channel news, and I think maybe CTV. Some people stayed out all day but they were the ones who just wanted to skip because our purpose was accomplished after the first period. They ruined it a little bit, and I think they also may have gotten the guy who planned it a suspension. That's about the most exciting thing that I know of that's ever happened in my little town.
If you want to read more follow this link.
ummmm the upper half is more important than the second, although stuff. Hope you're all doing well. I'm reading all of your posts though I may be slow to comment sometimes. I've been less of a total Internet addict lately.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Tut, Tut! Looks Like Snow!
So I woke up this morning to find snow outside. In April. I know I live in Canada, but despite the stereotypical images probably implanted in your minds, it's April. This kind of stuff just doesn't happen in April.
Not only was there snow in the morning but also snow all day. It's probably still snowing now if I were to look. Some people had a snowday today. Unfortunately, I didn't, although I suppose that's ok. I wouldn've snapped a picture for ya but I've been really tired today.
I stayed up a bit too late last night because I was thinking about Africa (I don't think a day has come yet when I haven't thought about it... probably because it wasn't snowy there. I'm kidding), decided it was to late to do my homework and woke up early to do it.
I keep thinking that something weird happened to the Earth's orbit and now it's winter again somehow. Or the sun finished its 11.2 year sunspot cycle and we've gone into a time with no sunspots and were having a mini ice age like in the 1600s. Yes, I like showing off my earth & space knowledge. I had the opportunity to mention that our Sun is of the G2 class in my Sunday school class. Google "OBAFGKM" if you want to know more about that. Just do it.
The other thing I keep thinking is that if it really is April, then the snow must be warm. I don't know. My whole system's really confused.
On a less snowy note, here's a music video I just finished on flash. It looked much better on flash, but it's better than nothing. Enjoy, please!
Not only was there snow in the morning but also snow all day. It's probably still snowing now if I were to look. Some people had a snowday today. Unfortunately, I didn't, although I suppose that's ok. I wouldn've snapped a picture for ya but I've been really tired today.
I stayed up a bit too late last night because I was thinking about Africa (I don't think a day has come yet when I haven't thought about it... probably because it wasn't snowy there. I'm kidding), decided it was to late to do my homework and woke up early to do it.
I keep thinking that something weird happened to the Earth's orbit and now it's winter again somehow. Or the sun finished its 11.2 year sunspot cycle and we've gone into a time with no sunspots and were having a mini ice age like in the 1600s. Yes, I like showing off my earth & space knowledge. I had the opportunity to mention that our Sun is of the G2 class in my Sunday school class. Google "OBAFGKM" if you want to know more about that. Just do it.
The other thing I keep thinking is that if it really is April, then the snow must be warm. I don't know. My whole system's really confused.
On a less snowy note, here's a music video I just finished on flash. It looked much better on flash, but it's better than nothing. Enjoy, please!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
A Poem
Starting with no brilliant intensions
I pick up my pen to scribe
Memories of the trip are fleeting
Grasping to hold on
The faces, names, smells
Like a dream it's almost gone
Gasping
Where is the friend I made?
When will she be home?
When will I be home?
The Earth is yet to revolve twice
But yet a thousand years may be gone
"Always remember your past,"
A secret once told me
"It provides great instruction"
"Never go back"
Against my will, I move forward
An impossibility
A mystery
Angainst my will, I am backward
My hope is for sleep
Time should pass that way
My hope is not seen
I hope my hope is quick
I hope my hope is soon
Temporary is the fixture
Almost gone
_________________________________________________________
I just wrote this. No editing. So if it sucks that's why. blah blah blah
I pick up my pen to scribe
Memories of the trip are fleeting
Grasping to hold on
The faces, names, smells
Like a dream it's almost gone
Gasping
Where is the friend I made?
When will she be home?
When will I be home?
The Earth is yet to revolve twice
But yet a thousand years may be gone
"Always remember your past,"
A secret once told me
"It provides great instruction"
"Never go back"
Against my will, I move forward
An impossibility
A mystery
Angainst my will, I am backward
My hope is for sleep
Time should pass that way
My hope is not seen
I hope my hope is quick
I hope my hope is soon
Temporary is the fixture
Almost gone
_________________________________________________________
I just wrote this. No editing. So if it sucks that's why. blah blah blah
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
life right now
Grade 10 literacy test tomorrow means I get the day off... at least the morning. And I would just take the whole thing off but I need to go in the afternoon for media arts. But at least I get to sleep in!
Right now, I'm so hungry. It's not my stomach though, it's hunger to know God's word better. I want something deeper there. I wish I could eventually know the whole thing and know exactly how every story points to Jesus.
For a long time the only time I've really spent in the word has been getting to know 2 tim. by memorizing it. And I got the third chapter finished. But it's gotten harder to find the time to recite it and keep it fresh and there's a longing for something new but I don't really know how to study it deeper. I want to. I'm a bit fearful that I'll forget what I've already learned but I'd rather know what it all means rather than just having a bunch of stuff memorized. That is important though.
But on the other hand some exciting stuff is happening. A prayer has started up now, just very recently at one of my friend's houses and it has tons of potential. I went yesterday for the first time and it was very good.
And I may be getting a another(new/first?) accountability partner. Well, she's a friend and known for a long time but not very well, so it be cool if this worked out well. I have different friend where there's some accountability between us but it's never been her title, and it might be considered more of a mentoring role. Great people indeed for sure.
So maybe a combo of the prayer group and this developing relationship could maybe, hopefully, could sooner than later bring abnout a girls group like the one there was in grade ten.... those are just my thoughts.
Right now, I'm so hungry. It's not my stomach though, it's hunger to know God's word better. I want something deeper there. I wish I could eventually know the whole thing and know exactly how every story points to Jesus.
For a long time the only time I've really spent in the word has been getting to know 2 tim. by memorizing it. And I got the third chapter finished. But it's gotten harder to find the time to recite it and keep it fresh and there's a longing for something new but I don't really know how to study it deeper. I want to. I'm a bit fearful that I'll forget what I've already learned but I'd rather know what it all means rather than just having a bunch of stuff memorized. That is important though.
But on the other hand some exciting stuff is happening. A prayer has started up now, just very recently at one of my friend's houses and it has tons of potential. I went yesterday for the first time and it was very good.
And I may be getting a another(new/first?) accountability partner. Well, she's a friend and known for a long time but not very well, so it be cool if this worked out well. I have different friend where there's some accountability between us but it's never been her title, and it might be considered more of a mentoring role. Great people indeed for sure.
So maybe a combo of the prayer group and this developing relationship could maybe, hopefully, could sooner than later bring abnout a girls group like the one there was in grade ten.... those are just my thoughts.
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