So how have all your summers been going, dears?
Here's the deal. This summer has been an enormous time of growth for me. Starting back from May with the fast that I did.
If you want the long story, here it is:
I do this monthlong computer fast because I'm addicted to YouTube and am spending hours and hours on waste.
Part way through I start reading a book called Wrestling Prayer by Eric and Leslie Ludy. I've mentioned it before.
I finish the book and I'm trying to apply everything that I've learned. (which I've haven't ceased to do)
So that's going well. May and June I'm praying about the next year. I apply to Briercrest College in Saskatchewan, Canada. I'm praying that the Lord would be directing all these things that I'm thinking about and that he would go before me in these matters. I'm accepted to the school, and I'm told that I've been shortlisted for this scholarship. The catch is that I can't know how much it's for because they wouldn't want my hopes up. They do tell me that it's good though so I start praying for it.
I think it was the following week. The usual scheduling manager goes on holiday for a week, and so another manager takes the job for that week and when I receive my schedule I find that I've just gain an extra 25 hours of spare time, which just bums me out.
During the time that I had off one day, I get a call from the school. One of the people from the Student Finance department calls. (a call that I probably wouldn't have gotten without the time off) She wants to talk with me, and so we talk. She asks me a bunch of questions, to which I answer, and when we've finished she tells me that it was nice talking with me and tells me that if I'm the one to receive the scholarship, I'll know by the end of the week.
After a few back and forth calls between her and my parents (because I was working everytime), she decides to email me to let me know that I did get this scholarship! Awesome! The best part is that this scholarship is one to cover my entire first year of school! I am truly so blessed. I was stunned with awe and thankfulness.
I just took a break from writing and I don't exactly know how to continue.
Basically, I've been learning a lot about God lately. He is so awesome - that is the True God, the God of the Bible. It honestly baffles me to think that anyone could deny his existence, yet without doubt that there an abundance of such people.
And if anyone were interested in looking into the validity of Scripture or anything, there are tons of resources available for that kind of thing. But no matter how strong the evidence, no matter what anyone says, it is true that without faith no one can take the Bible at it's word and just accept it as truth.
Fitting that in with this story of what I've been going through, I am very excited to be going to school. I've been counting down the days, which normally makes the wait longer, but somehow it hasn't. (15 til I leave as of now). There's really a lot to be excited about, but what I think I'm most excited about is the opportunity to grow in maturity.
It may be fun to be childish for a time, that is when you're supposed to be a kid. Becoming an adult though, you shouldn't want to be a slave to doing just whatever seems fun or pleasurable. That doesn't mean that you don't have fun or find pleasure, but it's just done differently.
If you live your whole life in pursuit of what brings you pleasure, you have wasted your life.
God has told us that there are ways to best live life. There is a way that is best to live as men and women and it doesn't include living for yourself. Jesus Christ is Lord of all and he needs to be exalted on high because he is righteous and good. The catch is that you can't live for both yourself and God. There's only enough room on the throne for one, and the choice is entirely up to you.
Even if no else is in for living for God, I want to be. I want to be set-apart for proclaiming Jesus as King. I want to spend my life declaring how good he's been to me. I want people to look at me and my life and invariably say that Jesus Christ must be the great God. Or something similar to that.
So if you didn't want to hear about Jesus today, I don't care. He's awesome and he is Lord, and the life he offers is either never talked about or wrongly spoken about by people who don't care the slightest.
In short, I'm just making myself available to his purposes and he's doing a lot of work with and in me. Included with that, is the reordering of my priorities and value s. Spending loads of time on my computer doesn't even make it close to the top.
I don't mind typing up a post once in a while, I just want to know that the time isn't being wasted. So if you want to know more about how school ends up being for me or whatever, then just leave a comment (they're sent straight to my email so I always get them).
********I propose that I'll write one post per month, so long as at least one person leaves some kind of comment saying that they'd read it. So that'll be it. Once a month or as often as people say they're interested. *********
PS thanks Diipo for asking! :)
