I want my blog back.

I miss you guys so much! And if nothing else I want to at least explain why I suddenly stopped.

Last June I got caught up in thinking about everything I would be doing in the summer. I started journaling a lot, which I have continued doing. And I thought about the differences between blogging and jounaling.

There were a lot of things I didn't know. Like, I didn't know why I blogged, or anyone for that matter. Why do people post personal things on the Internet? That's crazy. How can someone come to trust online friends as closely as (sometimes more than) other friends? I did and I didn't know why. That frustrasted me a lot. I didn't know why someone would send me a gift just from getting to know me through my written expression through blogging. And yet, that happened. It's over my head a bit, just something I couldn't and still don't really get.

So before heading off to Thunder Bay for the camp I did I was sincerely planning on returning home to type up those journals. I was planning on typing up my whole summer here but that wouldn't have happened anyways because of the massive amounts of eternity that would take. Reading it alone would take a week if you were reading during all your spare time.

But my resistence to blogging grew during the summer. So I started posting vague, short summaries of events, rather than the details. I began to feel like no one was reading and eventually I just stopped. Sorry.

I've been missing you guys a lot! No lie, and for a while. Since I quit, I started another blog. What I really wanted was to come back to this though. I'll tell you what it is, it's no secret. But it's not like this blog. I refrained myself from letting myself often writing personal things. It's www.bottleoffanta.blogspot.com, check it out if you want. Doesn't make a difference to me anymore.

If you still pray for me at all, then thank you. If not, no worries! Don't go kicking yourself saying, "I'm so sorry! I thought you were dead so I started praying for your family instead!" Just kidding. Seriously, let's not joke about death. Mom just came to my door in tears for my aunt who has three brain aneurysms. She's not dead but my mom very worried about her because the doctors don't know how to treat her yet. And today, I just found out that a grade 10 at my school committed suicide yesterday. I never knew her but it's really awful.

That's all besides the point. I want to start blogging a bit more again. Maybe just slowly at first. As you may have guessed, a lot has happened since Semptember 15, 2008, so if you want to know anything just ask. Or about my summer too. Or if you missed me too, then please, please leave me a comment! I miss the community here sooo much. I love you guys, Steph.